me and fitness have never been great friends. i have been a member of many gyms, i have not been in attendance at all of those gyms. i feel very uncomfortable in the gym environment, i find it all very intimidating and sometimes often a little fake. i had however managed to get away with not going to the gym for a very long time. i’ve never been skinny, well apart from after my divorce where everything went a little crazy, but i have always been a fairly healthy weight. however there was a changing point. my body changed and it wasn’t something that i was completely aware that was happening. i seemed to be putting on weight little by little but without anything in my diet changing. this is when i discovered i had polycystic ovaries but i also discovered i was pregnant too!

after the birth of ronnie i had chucked on a lot of weight. a good 4 stone and some more. shocking. i felt ashamed by it to be honest, i was so heavy and i could really feel it too. shifting it was hard, and those blooming ovaries were making it that little bit harder for me too. joy.  so for the first year or so, it just frustrated me so much and i didn’t really manage to lose anything, the devastation of not loosing a pound or so would send me into a chocolate eating frenzy and so the vicious circle began. i was deeply unhappy.

then something in me changed. i was embarrassed at my lack of will power and lack of success at shaking the weight back off, even if it was some, a small amount, i needed to start moving in the right direction. so i bit the bullet and joined weight watchers. this i discovered suited me well. i had a set amount of points and i could use them however i wanted. excellent. if i wanted something naughty i could, it wasn’t forbidden but then it was salad for the rest of day. it was something i could process easily in my head and manage with ease without have to weigh and count calories, and it worked. the pounds started to fall off, i was over the moon. then they fell off some more. i was pretty addicted. and some more! whoop whoop. but then i started to concern myself as i started weighing myself on a daily basis, sometime more than once, this couldn’t be good surely? this isn’t a healthy attitude? but i was getting so much response from friends and family on how great i was looking. but i knew i needed a break from it, it had started to take over my daily thoughts. so i took a break for around 6 months. i didn’t go to the meetings, i didn’t do any counting and i didn’t get on the scales. when i did go back i had completely maintained my weight, which was great as it meant the way i thought and ate food had permanently changed. i had also made a very different decision on how this next phase of weight loss was going to work for me. i was starting again but this time it would involve exercise.

exercise, yes me, and yes my family laughed in my face.

but what to do? gym no, yoga i love but not right, running not a chance my feet are a mess, cycling errr only if the sun is shining and then i found push studios just down the road from where i live. dancing that’s what i’ll do, so i signed my self up to zumba. zumba was created by a columbian man  alberto “beto” perez by complete accident. he had forgotten to take music to one of his classes so had to improvise with what music he had in his car, and improvised the whole class to a mix of latin rhythms and bingo, zumba was born.

i’ve been doing zumba twice a week if a can for a year now, or bum reduction as my lovely boys call it, and together with watching my points but not getting too obsessive about it and i can proudly say i have lost over 3 stone. my doctor even told me how proud she is of me, (which was quite a moment) and that i have finally found what suits me and i have succeeded. in an absolute ideal world i would love to shift that final stone, however mrs doctor has explained that this could be the hardest hurdle as my body is very different now with the cysts, and that i should not beat myself up about it, and that i remember to remain proud and focused on the three stone that i have lost and keeping that off.

click below to see more fitness


  1. October 3, 2012 / 12:18

    do you know I thought you had lost weight at the BritmumsLive conference thing but we didn’t get to chat properly so it was more that I clocked you from a distance – and I never got to tell you how great you were looking. You must have lost even more now. You’re a beautiful lady – inside and out though anyhow XX

    • hpmcq
      October 3, 2012 / 13:43

      Oh lady what a gorgeous comment thank you so much for your support. I’ve maintained over the summer I gave myself a summer holiday. I’m only 10lbs shy of my ideal weight but know it will be the toughest 10lbs ever!

    • hpmcq
      October 3, 2012 / 13:44

      my husband bought them for me as a gift to say well done and an inventive to continue the hard work, they are pretty cool and yay to me for the 3 stone!

  2. October 3, 2012 / 13:29

    Ok how awesome are your trainers?? Well Done on loosing (and maintaing) your weight, its no easy task!

    • hpmcq
      October 3, 2012 / 13:46

      they are the db’s! a gift from mr HPMcQ the final lbs are going to be the toughest, lets see where I end up! Thanks for your support x

    • hpmcq
      October 3, 2012 / 14:37

      until today I had never really appreciated how much I have lost, thank you so much for you comment, they will spur me on to lose the last lbs!

  3. October 3, 2012 / 16:48

    Not knowing you before weightloss all I can say is that you look gorgeous and don’t look like you need to lose an ounce more x

    • hpmcq
      October 3, 2012 / 16:58

      Bless you that’s most kind but my thighs are… well chunky… chunkier than I would like x thanks for your kind comments x

  4. October 3, 2012 / 20:53

    That is such an inspiring story and well done you, that is a fantastic achievement!

    • hpmcq
      October 3, 2012 / 21:47

      i’m so glad i posted this, i have never really recognised how well i’ve done, all the comments today have been overwhelming and have made me really proud of myself. thank you so much for adding to these wonderful comments x

  5. helloitsgemma
    October 3, 2012 / 21:35

    well done you – very inspiring. I love how your stepped back and rethought your attitude. The thought of Zumba terrifies me! but thats the thing finding what suits you.
    Am loving the trainers.

    • hpmcq
      October 3, 2012 / 21:50

      zumba terrified me too. the first couple of lessons was me laughing hysterically at myself as i flung myself in the complete opposite direction to everyone else! thank you so much for your comment i’ve been completely bowled over by everyones congratulations and support today x

  6. October 3, 2012 / 22:45

    Excellent stuff missus. I never realised you had lost so much weight and as someone has already said you looked gorgeous at Brit Mums, and also at Hyde Park. If I get to how you are now I’ll be happy. Oh, and love the trainers 😀

    • hpmcq
      October 4, 2012 / 07:08

      thank you lovely x so many supportive comments to my post today, what a wonderful blogging community that I belong too x

  7. October 3, 2012 / 23:31

    you should be so proud of yourself lovely 🙂 you have done so well
    the start of this post sounds like mine!! i put on 4 stone with my second child!! i lost most of it but like you i still need to shift that final stone (maybe stone and a half now, my cake consumption does not help!)- i need a kick up the arse too. i have heard good things about zumba , maybe i should try it out . xx

    • hpmcq
      October 4, 2012 / 07:19

      cake is such trouble!!

      what’s frightening is how easy it is to put on 4 stone but such hard work to loose!

      zumba is good fun and hard work. give it a go lady perhaps we can shake those final pounds off together!

    • hpmcq
      October 4, 2012 / 14:03

      thank you very much, mug celebrate with a cake! Oh no that’s not right damn 🙂

  8. October 4, 2012 / 11:49

    Great photo – love the trainers. I also love Zumba, a great workout but more fun than most.

    • hpmcq
      October 4, 2012 / 14:05

      I think that’s why it works for me, no one is too serious, your all there for the same reason. Thanks for your comment x

Leave a Reply