so the last 24 hours have been rather random. yesterday i was mostly in and out of being in the complete dark whilst trying to develop product for AW13. luckily i had been clever enough and packed a torch.
this was in delhi. five and half thousand miles from home.
i then hopped on a plane for eight and half hours. slept a very uncomfortable sleep and then the car didn’t turn up at the airport to pick us up, so we had to wait for another to be sent. joy o joy.
came home, unpacked and put the washing on. had a lovely lovely bath in clear not brown water, and then i was off to nursery to attend ronnies graduation. i know, that’s right, yes i said graduation. he is three about to turn four, and off to pre-school in september. so they held a graduation.
as you can imagine i was desperate to see him. even though skype and face time are marvelous things, it’s not quite the same is it. you just don’t get to sniff and squeeze. so i bounded off with excitement. when i arrived at the nursery all the children were sitting quietly in front of the rows parents. ronnie clocked me immediately, the joy in his voice was overwhelming and i burst into tears. “my mummy!” we had the longest hugs and many many kisses. problem was, that i think i spoilt his graduation. because that was it, he didn’t want to go back to the other where children were, he just wasn’t interested anymore. he just wanted to stay with me. “mummy are staying here all day?” my heart broke. he thought i would leave again.
in the meantime the children all sang their abc, twinkle twinkle little star and the graduation song they had written. they then all performed a dance they had prepared with an instructor. all very lovely. however, all the time ronnie was firmly on my lap and most definitely wouldn’t join in, but just clung to me.
the children all trotted off to the back room, the only way ronnie would go was if was with him. they had made sweet little mortar boards out of card. they all walked back into the room in single file apart from ronnie and sonny who both had a parent with them. one by one as their names were called out they went up to collect their certificates and have their photos taken. ronnie was firmly on my lap and wasn’t about to move anywhere. i can’t help but think i ruined the day for him, and that he would have had so much more fun if i wasn’t there.
but how could i not be there for his first graduation? how could i not see him now that i was back from my travels? is that greedy of me?
i’m a graduee
are you proud of me
i now know my numbers and my abc
i am big and strong
so off to school i go
to learn lots more
and have some fun